Assalamualaikum.
So this post won’t be like those normal daily posts of what going on in my life for a day.
warning: EMO post ahead.
So today I was feeling bitter, stressed and even restless. Cut that, I have been feeling like this since last night. The thing is I think I have said something wrong and she is clearly pissed at me.
I am aware of that. If she’s not pissed then maybe annoyed or irritated. Overall bad emotions.

AND I KNOW IT.

I even asked her but of course she said no  I am fine. No. Its cool.
I didn’t mean to be some nosy prick but dude, I can see that you are upset and its upsetting me! I keep asking and asking and asking and I always got the same answer.
its frustrating and she knows it.
I give you an example, You know your friend is dying from a disease and only she knows the cure to it. You as a friend, wants to help her. Want to be a use of her but she REFUSE to share it with you.
How do you feel? You want to save her life but she wouldn’t tell how.
That is how I have been feeling.

She called, she wants me to talk and yes, I talk, I tell some random shits, some updates of my life and what I heard back from her is like the tip of the iceberg. 
Its like how Haki feels for Saki. 
Its upsetting me, I feel like I want to cry but I can’t (because I’m at student pavilion right now.) 
no..that is one of the reason..I can’t cry because I want to be strong for her. 
I was talking and she is doing her work. What would she feel if I do that to her? I don’t want to come clean, it will turn into a cold war like right now. 
I understand that she is busy and I am not forcing her to do anything. If you can’t text or call, just tell me. Rather than me feeling like I am talking to the phone all by myself. 
Even sometimes in text aside from rp, I hardly get any long reply. 
I know she is action speaks louder than words but right now, I am at Sarawak. I can’t see your actions…can’t you at least show me that you still care?
And if she ever read this post, she will be upset again but hey, I am all alone at this land and I got no one to talk to. I don’t have my sister with me and the one I am close with is currently on a cold war with me. 
Do you know how I feel? No you don’t.
You will never understand. 
You’d be a liar if you say yes.
Kuro signing off. 

p/s: ……

Assalamualaikum
Yesterday is the first day of class. I woke up at 6am something with the burning passion to go to the class LOL
I arrived there around 7am something but class won’t start until 8am.
Slowly the class is filling up, not to mention the ones with the wrong room and everything.
We wait and wait and wait until it was well past 9 o’clock.
We started to get restless until some of the guys went out.
Turns out to be that THERE IS NO CLASS on that day but the one on 2 o’clock.
I was very irritated but then I also knows that the schedule is changed. Now it turns out to be that we got new schedule and that is how my frustrating and messy morning went. By the time 2 o’clock I already made my way back into the class. This time it’s History of Arts.
We didn’t do anything too hard yet, just mere introduction. Our lect would be Mr.Sylvester and he happens to be a very interesting guy. So far I enjoyed the class and glad to know that he is teaching several others. He is a student himself from UM and he isn’t that young. (in case you guys have the wrong imagination right now)
I went back home, Scott and Aina was there but they are leaving for their class. I ended up at the house alone which I use it to wash all of my remaining clothes and clean up everything.
By the night I’m watching running man and that’s about it for today I guess?
Some shitty things happened and I am now depressed so yes ladies and gentlemen. I am in very foul mood as I wrote this post. Forgive me for the lack of humor. I realize that too.
Kuro signing off.

P/s: I won’t feel any good for a few days. Yay.

Hellish walk, sit and listen x3

Assalamualaikum.
Third day. They say the third is the charm. Well I say fuck you.
Today started early which is around 4.00am early. Yes. THROW THE BLOODY CONFETTI!
We were given breakfast at 7.00am which I eat gratefully.
AFTER THAT. We went to a 30 minutes journey to the hall (DeTAR).
I am not amused by all these. NOT AT ALL.
We ended up sitting in the hall with boring speeches. Some of them are great and I had fun with them.
...that was how basically my day today. Sitting and listening.
We did a lot of cheering and pissing off the other college. hehehe. that I loike.
Yesterday night before we went back to our respective rooms, I (along with couple of other students) saw a single shooting star.
We were like "DID JOO SEE THAT?!!!"
along with the Liaison Officer. HAH.
I can only say that it was BEAUTIFUL. I remember a couple weeks ago my sisters and I stay outside to watch the shooting stars as the news said and we just ended up playing with each others hair and creeping our Indian neighbor. Sorry uncle.
This is one of the things that I wish I can draw when I had time. Please remind me again about this.
If you think yesterday's post is shitty, today I got no drawing for you guys. It was 12.15am when I reached our room and I am wet. WITH SWEAT. We had those 30 mins walk again and the area here is quite foggy from the weather and the natural cold.
In my mind, random shadows starts popping up. Thank you Persona 4 ==
I can't even think clearly on what I'm writing right now and these bloody emotional Naruto bgm is NOT HELPING! Bitch.
It's 12.37am now and I am off to bed. (not. I need to settle my clothes for tomorrow too. FML.)
Kuro signing off.

p/s: enough reading. I cant even read i mean write i mean.uhhh..type right. Night guys. Have a wonderful day tomorrow and in case you are wondering (which you are not) I NEED TO GET UP AT 4 AGAIN.